As I became a young professional and a mother, I faced overwhelming anxiety, depression, fear, and scary thoughts. I didn’t understand what was going on with me. The young woman looking back at me in the mirror was often not the person I wanted to be; she was afraid to live and afraid to not live. The brave, smiling face that she showed everyone was a mask. On the inside, she was quivering in terror.
Facing motherhood was terrifying. I wasn’t sure I could do this. How could I make sure that I didn’t repeat what had happened to me? I knew that I had to address my fears in order to be a healthy person and a gentle mother. But I didn’t know how to do that so I could become who I wanted to be. That was my crisis point.
Uncertain of all the roots of my issues, I began self-exploration. I was finally ready to face my past and admit that I was a survivor of longterm abuse and neglect. My past experiences were blocking my ability to move forward and live the life I wanted for myself.
I attended counseling, read self-help books, learned from other professionals, and deepened my knowledge of trauma-informed practice by studying about trauma treatment. I began to understand the wounds in my heart and soul, and, as I did, I began to see the path forward and understand what I needed to do in order to change myself.
I wanted to change the world and make it better for everyone, but I discovered that the only way to do that was to change myself first. I had to heal my heart in order to help others heal their hearts.
Change is a journey. It isn’t a 5-step plan. And I’ve tried a lot of 5-step plans! I’ve learned that it is about setting a vision of where you want to be or what you want in life and figuring out the first small step to take in that direction.
Maybe that first step for you is sitting down with a caring professional who can relate to your struggles and giving yourself the gift of time and space for self-exploration and healing. I provide a supportive space for you to be heard and gain insight. You can have a calm mind free from fearful thoughts. Stability and peace are obtainable goals for your life.
Is it time for you to address your past hurts so that you can transform into the person you have always wanted to be?
Call to begin your journey: (417) 319-7031
Melody Brave, MSW, LCSW